2007-11-09 - 11:57 p.m. Sometimes I feel like that toady guy in Brave New World... the one who was smart and elite, but short and ugly. And because he was short and ugly he didn't fit in easily, and he used that to see all the smart elite with an insider/outsider perspective. But as much as he liked to think he was so progressive and unbrainwashed... he was still trapped within the worldview he was raised in.I feel like that when I say things, or think things, that I know are racist or culturally insensitive or militaristic or... well, any number of things that by all accounts I should not be saying or thinking any more. But it lasts. Because I was raised with it and it is a part of me. I am Toady Guy. Hear me roar. Still, I guess it's not all bad. At least I'm aware of it, which supposedly means I'm on the journey to overcome... or accept... or something...
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