2003-01-31 - 7:20 p.m.

And I can't say why, really, because I guess technically not all that many things are going my way right now.

I didn't get a new job like I'd wanted, and probably won't. But, I'll be working at Wing Zone with my old crew who are cool people who were happy to see me again.

I haven't found a German-English dictionary to help me figure out the instructions to the Second Year German textbook that I have. But that's okay because I've still got three CDs that are helping me build my vocabulary, even if I can't do simple things like recognize verbs.

I don't have much money to spend on people right now, and I really have this overwhelming feeling like I should be buying everyone presents. But we're going to budget some extra cash to do something cool for my parents who will have been married for 30 years next month, two days before my son's second birthday. (no shit!)

It's kind of like pulling teeth to get Michael to fill out his applications and write the necessary essays for the missionary opportunites we're trying to take advantage of. But, I know that this week we're going to get it done, or else we're going to have a knock-down drag-out fight about it. Actually, I made that up just now, but I think I might threaten it anyway... what do you think?

But yeah, great mood. For several days. I was even sick yesterday, but great mood. Today was my last day as Case Manager at REACH. I'm still going to work there on Fridays as Art Therapist (since they'll pay me well and its minimum responsibility and I'll get to see the kids every week).

I think I feel good about having disentangled myself from a bad situation that made my morals hurt. And I think I feel good because I managed to do it so that I'm not just dropping out of the kids' lives like so many others have done to them. I think I feel good because I truly believe that later this year I'll be out of the country, finally fulfilling my life-long dream. I think I feel good about myself.

And none of those things are all that easy.

But they're all really good.

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