2002-12-10 - 7:12 p.m. I don't remember what I said last. Probably something about my job, but I don't remember what. Every day it's changing. I'm not sure what to make of it right now.Of course, right now I'm biased. I had a bloody awful end to my day, and it totally drained me. So since the rest of my day was just bloody stressful, I feel generally bloody right now. I'm going to be in charge on Thursday, and until January 13. Go ahead, ask me how I feel about this right now. Ask me about how I'm still new, only just now hitting my stride, and now I have new hats to wear. Ask me about how a few (note: a few) of the kids seem to have made it their personal mission in life to undermind everything I say. Ask me how the hell I'm going to administrate a program when I can't balance my checkbook. Ask me about how everything that I've learned about the program thus far has been from the Case Manager aspect, about how I"m getting to be good at that, but how I don't even know where the post-it notes are kept, or where certain files go or come from. But then make sure to ask me how I felt about all of this yesterday- because I felt quite good about it all then. I really do like my job. I like that I helped get a family's heat turned back on last week, and that I've set up a program that just might work for a gifted kid who has failed every class he's taken in the last three years. I like that I teach these kids new things, and they ooh and ahh over the books that they're making. I like that most of the kids have gotten comfortable enough with me that they'll call me over to talk about a personal problem they're having. I like how these three boys in particular, who can be real pains in the ass sometimes, will stop and listen to what I have to say, and respect me enough so that it bothers them when they disappoint me. I like that most days this job fills me with a sense of accomplishment. And maybe I've mentioned all of this before- all these things that I like about my job. But I really need to think about those things right now. Sorry if this entry is boring. Boogie Boogie Boogie!!! lalalalalalala for those of you who've seen zoolander, that shot where he's in bondage gear being whipped by a dominator- imagine that instead of him, that it's ol' GW. Made me laugh.
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